Dearest B – If you think there would have been some convenience in having Newstead sold before our marriage I wish it had been so, but as it must be a long business, and the settlements are adapted to that contingency, it really appears to me that the previous sale is of little importance compared with other considerations – but I feel that these pros & cons have been already too much discussed between us..
I have one request to make for myself.
If you conceive or feel there is any cause which can render you dissatisfied, or less satisfied with your intended return next week – that you will prefer it to all I have said in favour of that measure.
Your letters leave something for conjecture…
We shall have the more to talk of, and – if I don’t forget it all as usual in your presence, I have many things to ask and hear.
But it is useless to think of them before, so I will try to go to sleep…
Are you less confident that you were in the happiness of our marriage?
You will never deceive me – to that promise I trust, entirely and exclusively.
Seaham Hall (December 20 1814)
Lord Byron’s Wife Malcolm Elwin (London: John Murray 1962)