I wrote yesterday entirely “as I felt” – and perhaps my great anxiety to relieve yours may have disturbed you more.
You will, I know, understand the intention, if not exactly answered by the effect.
I was at Elemore this morning, where I learned that my Mother had also written.
Do not let us torment you with all our wishes and impatiences, which happily are in perfect accord.
We would not render patience more difficult to you, if it be necessary.
Mr. and Mrs. Baker, the owners of Elemore, have also an only daughter, and the contrast of her situation at this moment with mine, is melancholy. I was pained by a superiority in happiness, which she is far too generous to regard with an envious regret.
I did not mean to write to you again to-day, but you will not quarrel with this Self-indulgence of your Annabella.
Elemore Hall (October 11 1814)
The Life and Letters of Anne Isabella Lady Noel Byron Ethel Colburn Mayne (London: Constable & Co Ltd 1929)